Words Can't Describe Me

Uh Oh Uh Oh :)

2009-11-14T01:00:00.000-08:00

What would my mama do?

Uh Oh Uh Oh

If she found out about my tongue piercing?

Uh Oh Uh Oh ;)

Go Away

2009-10-17T10:21:00.000-07:00

The title says it all. Get the FUCK outta my life.

Torment.

2009-10-08T02:49:00.000-07:00

Hmmm....what do i do now? What do i do, now that I've made my best friend angry? She doesn't wanna talk to me. Wow, life IS fun, huh? Hmmm i guess my heart hurts coz i don't ever want her to leave my side. I just ended an argument with her few days back and now, another one... I'm very disappointed with myself. Barney, I'm so sorry for everything. But if you want me to leave then so be it. Thank you for everything, the smiles, the laughter, and the scoldings i got that were for my own good. Thank you for being such a great friend to me. Guess it's time to go now. Bye, oh beautiful wonder. Goodbye.

I love you.

Torment me so.

Power.

2009-09-29T07:07:00.000-07:00

Woke up today excitedly coz i was going to the gym after such a fucking long time. Needed the work out badly. After meeting the machees or mycheese, as Shivani calls em, we bused over to the gym in Woodlands Stadium. Then while working out, the funniest thing happened. Bruno was lifting weights and checking himself out in the mirror while me and Elvyin were training our legs. So i started imagining what Bruno'd be thinking in his head. Like "Ooh, im so fucking sexy, look at my biceps' and the other normal thing would be running through his mind: Diviya. Then when i told Elvyin this, he just burst out laughing and Bruno started looking at us all funny. Usually I'm used to that look coz i think he has something for me, stupid gay fella. Hmmm so amidst all the bastardizations, we worked our asses off. Then stupidly, we went to Causeway Point macs to have lunch, thus putting back all the weight we lost. See, my life sucks so much. Grrr. Rawr. :(

Live Life. Love God. Love Shivani. Peace.

Welcome Home.

2009-09-26T06:25:00.000-07:00

Wow. Really long time since i came here. Been away for far too long. Anyways, met my new friend Shivani today! She's so...fun. Haha. So down to earth and so cool. Anyways, we prank called people the whole day then we tricked Elvyin into coming to meet us, telling him that we had free pizzas and all. Then we met Bruno along the way after lunch, and decided to lepak at Mandai Tekong park. Then we walked to Causeway, got some friendship bands then lepak a while more.....and left. So all in all, today i had fun like crazy. And Shivani, thank you so damn much for being my friend. You coming into my life, was a blessing from God to me. Love all my friends to death. Thnks Fr Th Mmrs. ;)

Missing Priya. Loving my friends. Loving God. Peace.

Agony's Masquerade.

2009-03-18T10:10:00.000-07:00

Love is a bitch. Can't live with it and can't live without it either. Sometimes i wonder if that 'dream girl' even exists or not. Coz my heart has been tattered and torn, stepped and mashed upon until it has turned into a bloody pulp. I really hope she's real. I wish she'd look me in the eyes, and tell me that she loves me. And I'd tell her that i find my paradise when she looks me in the eyes. Idk why, but i think girls are always meant to be just my friends or something....Sorry if I'm bitching but yea I'm really going through a rough time right now. Having lots of problems. Nearly lost one of my friends, but I'm glad she still cared enough to stay by my side. Love her so much. Haiz.....Love. You suck. Period. I hate you for what you did to me on Christmas eve, and the second time few months back. You may think it's funny but i don't. Love. You're a bitch, i swear. Oh God, what did i ever do to deserve this? I don't know what i did but it must have been pretty bad till i had to go through torture to this extent. Well i guess i had it coming. Anyways, gonna head to bed now. Au Revoir.

Life goes on

2009-02-25T01:02:00.000-08:00

So went to church to meet Gian, Dosh, Gabriel and Michelle for their music practice today. Wow it was actually fun, we were jamming 'hotel cali' and 'my girl'. Then i got a call, a very sad phone call indeed. Guess life ain't fucking around with just me, but with some others as well. Haiz, and life goes on.....gotta go church tmw again coz its Ash Wednesday. See yall, fools.

Everlasting

2009-02-10T01:07:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry for whatever i said before, Syesha. I'd rather have you as a friend than to lose you completely. You're my best friend, and I'll love you know matter what. Just know that 'll always be here for you.

Love,
Your guardian angel

Life and her problems.

2009-02-09T15:52:00.000-08:00

Wow, no again. Why am i not bloody surprised? I was stupid enough to actually think that i had a chance. She's so beautiful but i....i, am just an evil bum. I don't deserve her. But why can't i let go? Why do i keep getting this feeling to not let go? I know she doesn't like me, and she never will. She never gave me a chance but somehow she knows that we can't be together. Am i destined to be alone? And she isn't talking to me much anymore so it hurts even more, it really hurts. My best friend is gone. Miss those crazy times when we used to have so much fun, before she...stole my heart. My dear, I'm sorry for putting you through this, but i really do love you, and i know that you don't like me. So yea, I'm not gonna force you to like me, coz i don't wanna be with you if you don't like me. So goodbye my dear friend, i guess i gotta go throw away all those dreams and wishes that i had for the both of us. Love you...sorry i forgot i can't say that anymore. Sorry. Bye.

Difficulties

2009-02-09T06:24:00.000-08:00

I'm not gonna leave, coz i promised you i wouldn't.
You mean too much to me, as a friend.
But if you wanna leave then so be it.
God bless you always.

Wounds so sore

2009-02-08T01:30:00.000-08:00

Is it my fault that you're so pretty? Is it my fault that i just go crazy whenever you smile? Is it my fault that i wanna take care of you forever? Is it my fault that i just love your optimistic personality? Is it my fault that i love your beautiful eyes? Is it my fault that you just make my day with your calls and messages? Is it my fault that i just wanted to be with you always? If it is then yea i deserved whatever i got...

It hurts, wounds so sore. Now i'm torn. When i see your face my heart bursts into fire. Beauty is what you make of it. You are beautiful. I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Love,
Your guardian angel.

On the road to salvation

2009-01-30T01:35:00.000-08:00

Well, tomorrow is the day when the posting results come out....Hopefully Bruno, Syesha, Delbert, Nimmi and all the rest get into the courses/schools that they wanna go to. As for me, I will be going to ITE ( I hope so ). Trying to appeal to get into accounting under higher nitec. If i don't get in then i guess its NS for me. Screwed up life? Yeah tell me about it...I seriously hate my fucking self, should have studied when i had the chance, instead i played around didn't give a shit about my studies. Fuck me. Stupid fucker.... Thank God for all my friends, who have supported me throughout these fucked up days, love you guys so much. And thanks for everything, Syesha. Love you loads. Well i gtg now, cya around bitches. All the best guys :)

My First Breath

2009-01-28T13:45:00.000-08:00

Hellooo....this is where i write about my screwed up life. This is my first breath. I don't even know why i started this blog, i think it's coz I'm like really really bored. Either that or its coz i need somewhere to let my feelings out. Like my parents who constantly intrude and disrupt my otherwise not so perfect life. I guess if it wasn't for Syesha and my guitar, i would have gone insane by now (Syesha's my best friend, btw). Don't think that im some emo kid or something, please. I'd rather kill myself than be called emo. It's just that if i don't let it out here, i might vent my anger and frustrations on someone, which is not something I'd want. I love God, He has given me all that I've wanted, great friends and a good family. Just wish He'd take away my sorrows. Well I've gtg now, bitches. Gotta have breakfast, then starts my screwed up day. Hopefully i can meet my friends today or i might just blow.......